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1.YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: ( pet & current street name)
Smokey Middle (yes, the wild cat outside is the closest thing I have to a pet right now)

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Cookie Dough Chocolate Chip

3. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME: (first initial of last name, first three of your middle name)
J.May

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Black Panther

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
May New London

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, last 3 letters of mom's maiden)
Jutteila.

7. SUPER HERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink, put "The" in front)
The Blue Relaxer

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Donald James

9. STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne & name of deodorant)
Red Lace Secret - that sounds scandalous

10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name)
May Lawrence
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You Are Somewhat Like Your Mom
Believe it or not, you and your mom are pretty darn similar. It may not seem like it at times, but you and your mom have a lot of common ground. Over time, you'll probably get closer ... especially if you emphasize the things you like about each other.
Your Life is Better Than 43% of All People
Your life is pretty average, with lots of normal ups and downs. You're on the way to having a better life, as long as you focus on what's really important. Remember to take the time to do the things that you like best, and let the little things slide. No one on their deathbed ever wished that they spent more time worrying or complaining!
Your Italian Name Is...
Cameo Russo
This one completely surprises me:
You Passed 8th Grade Science
Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!
Ummm...okay
You Are Ani Difranco!
Honest, real, and well liked. You're not limited by any boundaries. "And you can call me crazy But I think you're as lazy as white paint on the wall"
Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Romeo + Juliet
"Has my heart loved 'till now? Forswear it, sight! For I never saw a true beauty 'till this night."
Your Life is Rated PG-13
Your life isn't totally scandalous, but you definitely don't shy away from adult themes!
Your Learning Style: Unconventional and Insightful
You are very intuitive and ingenious. You're attracted to any field of study that lets you break the rules. You Should Study: Art Art history Architecture Comparative religions Eastern religion Education Music Philosophy
In a Past Life...
You Were: A Famous Chief. Where You Lived: New Guinea. How You Died: Decapitation.
In 1985 (the year you were born)
Ronald Reagan is president of the US Live Aid, a 17 hour rock concert broadcasts worldwide from London and Philadelphia, raising $70 million for starving Africans An 8.1 magnitude earthquake hits Mexico City and results in about 25,000 deaths Vocano "Nevada del Ruiz" erupts near Bogota, Columbia causing mud slides that bury two towns American Jew Jonathan Pollard is arrested for giving military secrets to Israel Mikhail Gorbachev becomes Soviet leader New Coke is released on the 99th anniversary of Coca-Cola The GNU Manifesto first written by Richard Stallman Kansas City Royals win the World series San Francisco 49ers win Superbowl XIX Edmonton Oilers win the Stanley Cup Back to the Future is the top grossing film Less Than Zero by Bret Easton Ellis is published David Lee Roth leaves Van Halen to begin a solo career "Careless Whisper" by Wham! spends the most time at the top of the US charts Elmo is introduced on Sesame Street The Golden Girls and Growing Pains premiere
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CIRCLE ONE: THE OUTSIDE
1. What's your name: Tessa
2. How tall are you: 5'8
3. What color are your eyes: Blue.
4. What color is your hair: At the moment? Brown. Naturally? Blonde. 
6. What is your best feature (physically): My eyes. 
7. What's your shoe size: 12 - yes, I know that's gargantuan.
8. Glasses, yes or no: Yes, although usually contacts. 
9. Did you ever have braces: Yes.
10. On a typical day you are wearing: Khakis, a blouse and my jean jacket


CIRCLE TWO: MUSIC
1. Name five of your favorite bands: Staind, Evanescence, Three Doors Down, Linkin Park, Apocalyptica 
2. Name five of your favorite singers: Avril Lavigne, Kelly Clarkson, Damien Rice, Adam Crossley, Carrie Underwood
3. Name three songs you are currently playing nonstop: Paranoia by Linkin Park; When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne, Zzyzx Rd by Stone Sour
6. When you're driving, what are the preset stations on your radio: Whatever the iPod is playing on. 
8. Was the last CD you burned an actual CD or a mix: Mix
9. Name one song/band/singer you're embarrassed to like but do: I try not to be embarassed anymore - Backstreet Boys
10. If you could only attend one concert ever again, it would be: Evanescence - again!
11. Name one band/singer you absoulutely can't stand: John Mayer
12. Name a group you use to like but feel you've grown out of: Creed

CIRCLE THREE: MOVIES/TELEVISION
1. Name your favorite actor: I might have to go with Kiefer Sutherland right now.... 
2. Name your favorite actress: Not really sure I have one. I guess Mary Lynn Rajskub - goodness I'm pathetic
3. Name your favorite television show right now: Genera
4. Name five really cool movies you've recently seen: Garden State...that might be the only decent one I've seen in a few weeks.
5. Your favorite canceled television show: Buffy the Vampire Slayer or Angel 
7. Name one movie you wish you hadn't wasted time/money on recently: Spider-Man 3 - I'm still mad at myself 
9. Favorite candy/food to watch movies with: Ruffles with French Onion Dip
10. Three favorite tv channels: I only watch Fox and ABC now...which is odd since NBC used to be my home base
11. Favorite reality show: Any Road Rules/Real World Challenges - currently, The Inferno 3...oh, and American Idol

CIRCLE FIVE: WHICH WOULD YOU PREFER:
1. Ten guilty men go free OR One innocent man goes to jail for life. That question sucks. I think my answer would change every five minutes
2. Eaten by a lion OR Eaten by thousands of small insects
3. A life of contentment without love OR A life with love and heartache - I'm really not sure. To be content would negate my need for "love."
4. Skydiving from a plane OR Bungee jumping off a bridge
6. No television OR No music. Neither.
7. No more pizza, ever OR No more chocolate, ever
8. A trip to Europe OR a trip to Hawaii
9. An hour with your future soul mate OR An hour with a lost loved one
10. No longer being able to cry OR No longer being able to feel the need to cry
11. Sex without love OR love without sex.
12. Loving someone who doesn't love you OR being loved by someone you don't love

CIRCLE SIX: THE LOVE LIFE
1. Are you currently in a relationship: No
2. Are you currently looking/interested in someone: I'd be looking if there was anything to look AT
3. Are you a virgin: Yes.
5. How many times have you been "in love": I don't think I ever have
6. Looking back, how do you feel about that person(s) now: I've really just realized I was never in love with ANYbody
7. Name three things (physically) you look for in someone: Eyes, smile, arms/hands
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Glory, why do you always have to find fun Internet distractions???
Tessa May Jutila's Aliases
Your movie star name: Ruffles Elkins Your fashion designer name is Tessa Rome Your socialite name is Buffy New York City Your fly girl / guy name is T Jut Your detective name is Panther Ledyard High School Your barfly name is Milano Cookies Relaxer Your soap opera name is May Rockville Road Your rock star name is Rollos Flash Your Star Wars name is Tesnig Jutkie Your punk rock band name is The Exhausted Doohickey
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Don't get me started again, Glory....
Your Ideal Hairstyle:
Layered Bob

Uh-Oh

May. 4th, 2007 08:43 am
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Glory's gonna kill me...but hey...I'm at work, it's gorgeous out, it's Friday...what do you want from me? You might even get to read a rant about my life too...wouldn't that just make your day? ANYWAY...

The Honest & Emotion Survey

1. Honestly, what color is your shirt? Navy blue with yellow lettering

2. Honestly, whats on your mind? My next J/C story

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? Sitting at work, doing this.

4. Honestly, do you think Britney Spears is attractive? Sometimes

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? I thought mean thoughts about somebody.

7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? I don't think I get the disney channel...I guess my ignorance would prove that I don't watch it.

8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? Jen called me this morning to invite me out to lunch.

9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? I'm jealous of my friends who are getting married this summer and are about to embark on a life together. I'm jealous of skinny girls. I'm jealous of people who have nice working cars. I'm jealous of people who have real houses.

10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? My mom's boyfriend sleeping over. My mom making me feel like I can't be a functioning adult. My stepmother ruining my little brothers' lives. Not having anyone to hang out with.

11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? Like you wouldn't believe.

12. Honestly, do you have an eating disorder? Yeah, but not anorexia or bulemia. It's more like binge-eating, which is a disorder.

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? Yes.

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret ? I don't know. I have a secret from my past that I usually forget and that only one or two people know.

15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like? Sadly, yes.

17. Honestly, are you in denial? Probably about something....

19. Honestly, do you like/love anyone? No.

20. Honestly, does anyone like you? No. Really doubting anyone's ever been attracted to me EVER.

Anger Section:

1. What do you do when you're mad? I get really snappy. I hide in my room. I cry. I go for a drive. I go to the gym. 

2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? I don't really know. I internalize. Maybe when I sent Becca crying into the stacks.

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? Yes - sorry Becca

CRYING SECTION:

1. Honestly, when's the last time you really cried? Um, I cried pretty hard when I realized Nightmare (my cat) wasn't coming home.

2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? Yeah.

3. Do certain songs make you cry? If my writer's imagination gets worked up and I envision this heartbreaking scene to a song, then yeah. 

4. What usually makes you cry? Used to be Devin. Lately it's been Nightmare and the fight going on about who's going to live where in the fall.

Happy Section:

1. Is there someone right now, that could do something to make you happy? Yes - but it ain't gonna happen.

2. Who can make you happy? Jen, Mimi and Grampa, Glory and Holly brighten my day every day at work, and Rory when I get home :)

3. Does being with your friends make you happy? Jen can pretty much always make me happy. I feel like it's been so long since I've seen my Gordon friends...

4. Do you believe in yourself? Eh. I don't believe I'll ever have a functioning relationship - or a relationship at all. I don't believe that I'll find a career I love. I don't believe I'll ever be able to completely support myself. So does that count as a no?

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This is incredibly long. But I'm bored and this gives me something to do. I'm pretty sure in the first part you supposed to bold the true statements. At least now Glory will have something to do when she wakes up this afternoon - even though she SHOULD be writing happy J/Cness!!!

I don't own an iPod
I like to read sonnets
My favourite Shakespeare play is Macbeth
I have peed in a urinal before
I have stayed overnight in a hospital
My brother almost died once
Nothing is more important than happiness
I have already planned my dream wedding
I'm scared of bridges
I scream at horror movies
Rachel McAdams has a funny laugh
I'm interested in Ancient Egypt
Wouldn't it be cool to be wrapped up like a mummy and be preserved when you die?
I have a lit candle in my room
I get a lot of junk mail
I enter a lot of competitions for prizes
And... never win
I have curly hair
Pigs are cute
One of my drawers are overflowing with pencils and pens
I hate tourists in my city
Why do they always clamour outside McDonalds as if it's Buckingham Palace?
I wish America had a King or a Queen
I'd hate to be a princess
I have Spanish blood in me
I have reading glasses
My dog eats tissues
Dr Pepper, so misunderstood
Ozzy Osborne is hilarious
...Kelly, however...
My idol ISN'T a celebrity... and no, they aren't one of my parents, either, you sap
I'm a daddy's girl
I have naturally rosy cheeks
I have dozens of photo albums
I can't wait until I turn 21
My boyfriend has hairy legs
I wear a lot of red
I have small hands
I live on a street
I live in a cul-de-sac
I live with my parents
I live with another family member

I live with a roommate
I live in a dorm room
I live alone
My house has one floor
My house has two floors
My house has three floors
My house is an apartment
My house is a condo
My house is a trailer
I have my own bathroom
I hate the carpeting in the den/living room
I love the wall paper/color in my bedroom
There are more than three bedrooms in my house
My house has a basement
My attic is huge
My attic is way too small
My attic is non-existent
My house has more than eleven windows
My front yard is huge
My front yard is average
My front yard is small
My backyard is huge
My backyard is average
My backyard is small
I have really nice neighbors
There are a lot of knick-knacks in my house
My house is for sale
I live in a woodsy area
I live in the suburbs
I live in the city
There's no dining room in my house
My house is immaculate
My house is average
My house is messy
My house has a laundry room
There are actually cars parked in our garage
There's everything BUT cars in your garage
I have a short driveway
I have a long driveway
I have an average driveway
My driveway isn't paved
There's a pool in my backyard
My house has a wrap-around porch
My house has a hot tub
There are more than three working TVs in my house
There is more than one working computer in my house
I am obsessive when it comes to hygiene
I could be cleaner
I take care of myself but not necessarily of other things
I shower once a day or more
I shower more than once a day in the summer because I get sweaty more
I don't shower everyday
If I don't wash my hair everyday it gets greasy
I can go for days without washing my hair and it never gets greasy
I have to buy specific treatments for my hair
I buy the same shampoo and conditioner all the time
I shower in the evening

I shower in the morning
I prefer to bathe than shower
I can spend at least an hour in the bathroom
I do my make up in the bathroom
I have my own cupboard full of beauty products
I wash my face separately from the shower
I wash everything daily
I shave my legs in the shower
I have a weak bladder and always need to use the toilet

I have a strong bladder and can last all day
I'm somewhere in between
I pluck my eyebrows regularly
I have a strict skincare routine
I ALWAYS wash my hands after I have used the toilet
I admit that there have been times where I haven't
I brush my teeth twice a day
I brush my teeth less than that
I shave my armpits
I use tampons
I use towels
If I get a bug on my hands I always wash them straight afterwards
I wash my hands before I eat
I wash my hands AFTER I eat
My nails are always clean
I only wear my clothes once before washing them
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What Kind Of Girl Are You?
Based on the popular stereotypes!

Girly Girl
[ ] You love bright colours
[x] You still have a lot of stuffed animals from your childhood
[ ] Your favourite colour is pink
[ ] You think boys are disgusting
[ ] You hate to get dirty
[x] You love pop music
[ ] You love to shop
[x] You are spoiled
Total 3

Tomboy Girl
[] Most of your friends are guys
[x] You are not afraid to get your hands dirty
[ ] You love to watch and play sports
[x] You never wear dresses/skirts
[ ] You don’t or don’t usually wear make up
[x] You usually wear your hair in a ponytail
[ ] You dislike the girly girl stereotype
[x] You like rock music
[ ] You are athletic
Total 3

Geeky Girl
[ ] You don’t have too many friends
[ ] No matter how hard you try, you cannot fit in
[x] You are sort of clumsy
[x] You wear glasses/contacts or have braces
[ ] You actually try hard in school
[x] You read a lot
[x] You don’t socialize that much
[ ] You are close with your parents
Total 4

Alternative Girl
[x] You usually prefer your own company
[ ] You don’t care what others think of you
[x] You dye your hair
[x] You listen to heavy music
[x] You usually wear darker colours
[x] You like to think you’re mysterious
[ ] You are secretly very intelligent
[x] You are very creative
Total 6

Slutty Girl
[ ] You lost your virginity at a young age
[x] You love to flirt with mostly every good-looking guy you meet
[ ] You have had a one night stand
[ ] You wear low-cut tops to show off your cleavage
[ ] You wear short skirts
[ ] You have more exes than you can count
[ ] You go out most nights and stay out late
[ ] You generally love sex
Total 1

Popular Girl
[ ] You have too many friends to count
[ ] A lot of people envy you or want to be you
[ ] You are always invited to lots of parties etc
[ ] You are way ahead in latest trends
[ ] You have a popular boyfriend
[ ] A lot of guys have a crush on you
[x] You do well in school
[ ] You know you are beautiful
Total 1

Bitchy/Hard Girl
[ ] A lot of people find you intimidating
[ ] You are not scared of anything
[ ] You are a bully
[ ] You are in a gang
[ ] You disobey all the rules
[ ] You don’t do well in school
[ ] You have been in a physical fight
[x] You are defensive/opinionated
Total 1

Guess I'm alternative.
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The House Survey

*Attic*
Whats in your attic?: Nothing
Anything special?: No

*Bathroom*
How many bathrooms are in your house?: One
How many people do you share a bathroom with?: One
Or do you have your own?: No
How many toilets in your house total?: One
How many bathtubs (just bathtubs)?: None
How many full baths?: One
How many mirrors?: One

*Bedroom*
How many bedrooms are in your house?: Two
How many dressers?: Three
Total number of beds?: Two
Do you have your own bedroom?: Yeah
What color(s) are the walls/ceiling?: Lavender and White
Carpet?: Blue? I don't ever see it because I'm messy
What color is your comforter?: Purples
Is your bedroom big or small?: Tiny

*Living Room*
Do you have a living room (if no, go on to the Kitchen questions)?: Yep
Do you spend more time there than your bedroom?: No
How many couches do you have?: One
What about recliners?: None
And coffee tables?: No
Is your living room carpeted?: Yeah
Do you have a TV in there?: Yep
More than one?: No

*Kitchen*
Do you consider your kitchen big?: No
Do you have a dishwasher?: No
Do you use it?: N/A
Do you have a side-by-side refrigerator?: No
Is there a table in your kitchen (that you can eat on)?: No
Does your kitchen have a TV in it?: No

*Garage*
Do you have a garage?: No
Do you/your parents use it to keep the car(s) in?: N/A
Or just for some spare junk?: N/A
Or both?: N/A

*Basement*
Do you use your basement for storage?: We don't have one
Do you go into your basement often?:
Could it be considered your second bedroom?:
Is your basement your bedroom?:
Does your basement have carpet?:

*Other*
How many TVs do you have in your house total?: Three
Pets?: None since Nightmare ran away
Computers?: Two
Radios?: One
CDs?: Not sure
Video Game consoles (GameCube, PS2, etc)?: Three
People?: Two
Trash cans?: Two
Ceiling fans?: None
Floor fans?: Two
Window air conditioners?: Two
Phones?: None
Cell phones?: Two
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slept in a bed with the same sex? Yeah
Would you kiss a member of the same sex? No
What age was your first kiss at? I'll tell you when it happens
Where were you?
Who was it with?

B- Bolding (or x-ing)
I like apples
I'm thirsty

I can't wait for school to start
I'm crying
I miss someone right now
I'm really confused about one person
I'm soooo happy right now
I'm laughing at someone
I'm glaring at the screen

C- Confusion
I'm currently confused about....
Boys
Friends
Family
Myself
Bf/gf
Computers
An ex-friend
A situation
SO many things

An ex-bf/gf
None of these

D- Depression
Have you ever been depressed? Yeah
Have you ever self-harmed? Yes
Do you know anyone who has? Yes
Have you ever been on anti-depressants? Yes
Do you worship Satan? No
Have you been labeled Goth or Emo? No

E- Either Or
Dogs or Cats? Cats
Beach or Camping? Beach
Best friend or bf/gf? Both
Shower or bath? Bath if it's a nice tub
Wedding or funeral? Wedding
Blood or death? Blood
Horror or comedy? Horror

F- Food
I like...
[x] Pizza
[x] Spaghetti
[x] Skittles
[ ] Strawberries
[ ] Cranberries

G- Guys/Girls names
Like it for a boy or girl?
A- Aidan? Boy
B- Bayle? Boy
C- Cameron? Girl
D- Devon? Girl with that spelling
E- Evan? Boy
F- Farren? Neither
G- Gael? Girl
H- Halyn? Neither
I- Isra? Neither
J- Jackie? Girl
K- Kaedyn? Boy
L- Laken? Boy
M- Morgan? Girl
N- Nat (as in Nathan or Natalie)? Boy
O- Oakley? Why would you do that to a child?
P- Pete (as in Peter or Petra)? Boy
Q- Quinn? Boy
R- Riley? Boy
S- Sam (as in Samuel or Samantha)? Boy
T- Taylor? Girl
U- Ull (yes that's a real unisex name)? Neither
V- Vail? Neither
W- Wallace? Boy
X- Xandy (Nickname for Alexander/Alexandra. No joke!) Neither - it should be XANDER for a boy
Y- Yardley? Again - WHY?
Z- Zephyr? Not in a million years

H- Honestly...
Have you ever cheated on a bf/gf? No
Have you ever broken someones heart? No
Dumped someone for their best friend? No

I- I've seen...
[x] POTC2
[x] Shrek
[x] Titanic
[ ] Thirteen
[x] Seven
[x] LOTR
[ ] Anchorman

J- JOKES!
What inside joke comes to mind when I say... I'm just gonna leave these all blank...
Puddle- None
Cake- None
Nail- None
Play- None
Water- None
K-
Your mom –
Your brother –
A donkey –
Your sister –
Your dad – well, okay...he's evil. but that's not really a joke, is it?
Your grandfather-
A dead body –

L- Love
Crushing/Taken? Neither
Name?
Year you met them?
Hair colour?
Eye colour? 
Screen name?

Maybes aren't allowed
Would you stab someone if they held a gun to your head? I think I'll have to go with a yes...
Would you jump off a cliff for a bf/gf? Depends on the situation I suppose

N- NEVER would I...
Eat a rat
Cry in front of my friends
Make my bf/gf cry - we all do it at some point
Kill myself
Drink blood


O- Other stuff
Do you like cameras? Yeah
Taking the pictures or being in them? being in them despite my being NOT photogenic
Would you rather be eaten alive or have to eat someone alive? Who thinks these questions up??? ummm...I couldn't stand the pain or the grossness, so...whatever.
Be stranded on a deserted island or thrown in a dungeon? Dungeon

P- People
I know a...
Hilary
Jason
Jade
Joel
Kyle

Riley
Sierra
Tayen
Flora
Max
Aurora
John

Q- Quirky
I'm impatient
I tap my fingers on anything and everything
I talk too loud
I laugh too loud
Im too crabby
I bite my nails

R- Right now I'm...
Fighting with someone
Wearing shorts
Wearing pjs
On MSN
Writing/reading a xanga blog
At a party

S- Siblings
How many? Three
Youngest/Oldest/Middle/Only? All - I'm serious, just ask and I'll explain it.
Like it? Don't go there
Spoiled? Yes
Get along with your siblings? For the most part

T- True or false
I can lick my elbow. False
I failed a class in middle school. False
I just fucked up BIG. False
I love you. False

U- Under or over?
Toilet paper: Doesn't matter
Bridge: Over
Tunnel: Through
Ladder: Under

V- Very random
Favourite colour? Black or Blue or Purple, although I like Red too.
Favourite food? Pasta of some sort, especially if it has shrimp in it.
Like the colour red? Yeah
Favourite letter? R
Last time you went shopping? Sunday

W- Who was the last to...
IM you: Mark
Hug you: Mimi
Kiss you: 
Write you a poem:
Tell you they love you: Jen or my Mom

Xs and Os
X for love
O for like
Nothing for dislike
[ ] Orlando Bloom
[O] Johnny Depp
[ ] Keira Knightley
[O] Angelina Jolie
[ ] Draco Malfoy
[X] Harry Potter
[ ] Kevin Spacey

Oy...

May. 2nd, 2007 04:17 pm
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One of the programs at work isn't working, so everything is on hold...yuck....At least I'm giving Glory things to do when she's bored :)

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Okay, so this is like the iTunes thing where I put a line of the song and you have to guess it. But my player is not on random. These are my 20 favorite songs of the moment. So please try and guess...'cause it's fun...at least for me. :)

1. I don't how else to put this, it's taken me so long to do this. Falling asleep and I can't see straight. My muscles feel like a melee, my body's curled in a U-shape, I put on my best but I'm still afraid. 

2. I remember it well, the first time that I saw your head 'round the door, 'cause mine stopped working. I remember it well, there was wet in your hair, I stood and stared and time stopped moving. 

3. Look at this photograph, every time I do it makes me laugh. How did our eyes get so red? And what the hell is on Joey's head? 

4. There's no time for us. There's no place for us. What is this thing that builds our dreams, yet slips away from us? Who wants to live forever? Who wants to live forever? 

5. If I could come back to you, it'd always come back to you. But knowing you and wanting you, are separate and this is desperate and I know you're here with me. You are always with me. 

6. It's not easy trying to understand how the world can be so cold, stealing the souls of men. Cloudy skies rain down on all your dreams. You wrestle with the fear and doubt, sometimes it's hard but you gotta believe.

7. When I see your smile, tears run down my face. I can't replace. And now that I'm strong I have figured out how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul, and I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one.

8. I've got my things packed, my favorite pillow, got my sleeping bag, climb out the window. All the pictures and pain I left behind. All the freedom and fame I've gotta find. And I wonder how long it'll take them to notice that I'm gone. And I wonder how far it'll take me to run away.

9. You took my hand, you showed me how. You promised me you'd be around. I took your words and I believed in everything you said to me. If someone said three years from now, you'd be long gone, I'd stand up and punch their mouth, 'cause they're all wrong. 

10. Battered and torn, still I can see the light. Battered and worn, but I must kneel to fight. Friend of mine, what can you spare? I know sometimes it gets cold in there. When my legs no longer carry, and the lone wind chills my bones, I just reach for Mother Mary and I shall not walk alone. (*some of those lyrics might be a little off, sorry)

11. Every single day I walk down the street, I hear people say "Baby," so sweet, every since puberty, everybody stares at me - boys, girls I can't help it baby. So be kind and don't lose your mind. Just remember that you're my baby. 

12. I was blown away, what could I say? It all seemed to make sense. You've taken away everything and I can't do without. I try to see the good in life, but the good things in life are hard to find. 

13. When you see love and you don't know what it is, you might find yourself in fear to show your heart. When you feel it, and it's all so wonderful, you might find yourself in fear to let it part, in fear to let it part.

14. I'm just a normal boy that sank when I fell overboard. My ship would leave the country but it'd rather swim ashore. Without a lifeinside me stuck again, wish I was much more masculine. Maybe then I could learn how to swim like 14 miles away. 

15. I, I who have nothing. I, I who have no one, adore you, and want you so. I'm just no one with nothing to give you, but oh, I love you. You, you buy her diamonds. Bright, sparkling diamonds. But believe me, dear when I say, that she can give you the world, but she'll never love you the way I love you.

16. Who made up all the rules? We follow them like fools. Believe them to be true. Don't care to think them through. I'm sorry, so sorry. I'm sorry, it's like this. I'm sorry, so sorry. I'm sorry, we do this. 

17. I can't wait to see you, wanna see if you still got that look in your eye - the one you had for me, before we said our goodbyes. And it's a shame that we gotta spend out time being mad about the same thing, over and over again, about the same thing, over and over again. 

18. I'm looking at you through the glass, don't know how much time has passed. Oh God it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head. 

19. I'm awake in the afternoon, fell asleep in the living room. One of those moments when everything is so clear. Before the truth goes back into hiding, I wanna decide because it's worth deciding to work on finding something more than this fear. 

20. I always needed time on my own. I never thought I'd need you there when I cry. And the days feel like years when I'm alone. And the bed where you lie is made up on your side. When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now?

Another one

May. 1st, 2007 01:51 pm
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I used a better pic this time. But apparently I have a manly face, because they keep giving the highest percentages to men. But I didn't put their faces in the collage because I'm in denial about it.
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My music

Apr. 30th, 2007 03:36 pm
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This is that stupid music thing where you turn on your music and pick the first 30 songs that play and then write some lyrics from each song and everybody has to guess what song it is. I have to be honest, I skipped some of the songs that played because they were instrumentals. I thought that might make guessing a little hard. This is just the first ten. So here goes...Good luck everyone. 

1. Why did you lie to me? Can't be trusted, good for nothing type of brother Everything you claimed to be was a lie, lie Why did you lie to me?

2. So you say you've been here you know me you really understand you felt the way I feel. Darlin, sugar, let me say, I don't think you even have a clue of how you've blown my life apart. 

3. Sometimes we fall / Ain't nothing new to me / Don't care move on / I'm a son you gave up for this child, NOW

4. To the left, to the left.
Everything you own in the box to the left.
In the closet, that's my stuff.
Yes, if I bought it, baby please don't touch 

5. Well I just can’t seem to pity
‘Cause my heart’s to numb to feel
And the smile does all the talking
Though the pain is all that’s real
With the way that you keep screaming
I can hardly hear to think
And I feel the bridges burning
Underneath my feet 

6. The lake is frozen over
The trees are white with snow
And all around
Reminders of you
Are everywhere I go

7. It was a test we could all hope to pass
But none of us would want to take
Faced with the choice to deny God and live
For her there was one choice to make

8. I used to be the life of the party, the man of the hour, the one in control. Never question no hesitation, get who I want and then I move on. But you've stolen my thunder, taken me under.

9. Just staring off into space again
What am I looking for?
Maybe a cigarrette might calm me down or,
Keep me warm
Maybe a drink might be able,
To tell me that I might be able,
To do this alone.
They're probably both wrong.

10. Hearts go astray
Leaving hurt when they go
I went away
Just when you needed me so
Filled with regret
I come back beggin' you
Forgive, forget
Where's the love we once knew?
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001.Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? yes

002.A poofy dress or a short party dress? short party dress

003.What would do you if you received a long love letter? Completely depends on who it's from and what it says.

004.Group dates or single dates? single

005.Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends? yes

006.Diamonds a girls best friend? They're okay. I prefer sapphires.

007.Is your hair up or down? down

008.Do you straighten your hair? yes

009.Do you like to get tan? ehhh. too much work. and not healthy.

010.Whats your favorite girly magazine? I hate girly magazines

011.What's your Favorite mascara? I don't care as long as it works.

012.Do you get your nails done? I like it when I have pretty nails, because I bite mine. But it's a lot to sit through.

013.Small or large purse? large

014.In your purse, what are your must haves? Wallet, notebook, book, iPod

015.Jeans or skirts? jeans

016.Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable? Sometimes

017.Do you text message alot? Yes

018.What would you do if you got pregnant? I'd be married, so I don't think it would be a problem.

019.Whats your favorite color? blue

020.Do you wax your eyebrows? NO

021.Heels or Flats? Whichever goes best

022.Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? Not really, but when I'm uber-depressed about life, yes.

023.Would you ever leave the house without make-up on? It's happened occasionally.

024.Walmart or Target? Whichever.

025.Do you wear collared shirts? sometimes

026.On the scale of 1-10 how fun is shopping? 5. Depends on what you're shopping for, and who you're shopping with.

027.Do you like preppy boys? Looks-wise, yes. But sometimes their personality gets in the way.

028.Are you spoiled? yes

029.Do you think lipgloss is the best? no

030.Do you own any big sunglasses? Not really

031.Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show? yes

032.How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? I can get ready in 15 minutes flat. But I look better if I have a whole 45 minutes.

033.Do you like to wear bandaids? no

034.Do you like skater boys? no

035.Do you often wish there was something you could change? Yes

036.Gold or silver? silver

037.Do you like to receive flowers? yes

038.Do you like surfer boys? no

039.Do you dress up for the holidays? Sometimes

040.Do you like to wear dresses? sometimes

041.On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you? Depends on the guy.

042.In the past 24 hours have you hung out with a guy? No. My life is sad.

043.Do you wear lipstick? Sometimes. It lives in my purse.

044.Would you date a guy shorter than you? It would have to be true love.

045.Do you like ghetto boys? no

046.What are your top three favorite stores? Book Barn, Borders, Wal-Mart/Target

047.Which perfume do you wear the most? Lace by Versace

048.Do you like to hold hands? sure

049.What is the youngest you would date? At the moment, 2 years. 'Cause they'd still be in college.

050.What is the oldest you would date? 5 years.

051.Do you like glitter? no, but I remember when I did.

052.Would you mind if you were in a puddle of mud? yes

053.Is it hot when guys sweat? not really

054.What is the best feature in a guy? eyes and/or smile

055.Does it turn you on when guys talk dirty? Never had it happen. And I'm okay with that.

056.Would you mind if a guy slapped your butt? I think so. My butt is kind of, well...mine.

057.Would you go for a one night stand? Absolutely not.

058.Tropical drinks, or Starbucks? Tropical. Starbucks is icky.
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People need to start IMing or emailing me so that I can stop doing this crap...
Your Movie Buff Quotient: 62%
You are a total movie buff. Classics, blockbusters, indie favorites... you've seen most of them. Your friends know to come to you whenever they need a few good DVD rental suggestions.
Your True Love Will Find You Eventually
You definitely put yourself out there a little - but you could be doing more. If you're truly looking for love, try doing more things and meeting more people. You don't have to actively look for love, you just need to stay active. Be out there a little more, and the right person will find you!
On Average, You Would Sell Out For
$333,707
You Aren't In the Best Of Moods
While you aren't full on depressed, things aren't going your way. You may be hurt, angry, frustrated... or all three. Not to worry - you'll be feeling fine in no time.
You Are Not a Dumb American
You got 7/10 correct. You know a good deal about American history, but there's some basic facts you have wrong. Time to go back to history class!
Your Superhero Profile
Your Superhero Name is The Ambush Avenger Your Superpower is Divine intervention Your Weakness is Body odors Your Weapon is Your Plasma Knife Your Mode of Transportation is Horse
Your Deadly Sins
Envy: 80% Sloth: 60% Gluttony: 20% Greed: 20% Pride: 20% Wrath: 20% Lust: 0% Chance You'll Go to Hell: 31% You will die in a duel.
Okay, okay...I'll stop for now.
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Your Star Wars Name And Title
Your Star Wars Name: Lisel Junew Your Star Wars Title: Sniwat of Ainigriv
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This is sad...it's only 10 in the morning. Somebody save me!

1. You have 10 dollars and need to buy snacks at a gas station: Doritos or Pringles, some chocolate, some beef jerky and a Sprite

2. If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you want to be? I don't want to be a sea creature...

3. Who's your favorite redhead? Ummm...I don't really have one. I used to be a redhead...

4. What do you order when you're at IHOP? 3 Buttermilk pancakes, with two or three eggs overeasy (on the side) and MILK

5. Last book you read? In His Image by James Beauseigneur

6. Describe your favorite pair of underwear: I like the froggy ones I have on right now.

7. Describe the last time you were injured: injured, huh? I was incredibly sore from playing baseball last weekend...does that count?

8. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with? I'm gonna have to say Jen. Becca and I might do okay...I'd kill Evan or Devin.

9. Rock concert or symphony? Go to Trans-Siberian and you get both.

10. What is the wallpaper of your cell phone? A pretty country road.

11. Soda? Sprite - I'm not allowed to have caffeine.

12. What type of shirt are you wearing? Navy blue polo shirt with 'B.D. Design' on it.

13. If you could only use one form of transportation for the rest of your life what would it be? Pretty much any car that wasn't going to break on me would be GREAT

14. Most recent movie you've watched in theatres? Vacancy

15.Name an actor/actress you've had the hots for: Carlos Bernard/Kiefer Sutherland

16. What's your favorite kind of cake? yellow or white as long as the frosting is chocolate

17. What did you have for dinner last night? Hot dogs

18. Look to your left, what do you see? Virginia - not the state, my coworker

19. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? nope, and it drives my grandmother CRAZY

20. Favorite toy as a child? Probably my Super Nintendo

21. Do you buy your own groceries? Everything except the meat

22. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? Yes, but I'm paranoid.

23. When's the last time you had a sour gummy worms? I had not sour ones last Saturday.

24. Whats your favorite fruit? banana.

25. Do you have a picture of yourself doing a cartwheel? No, thank goodness

27. Have you ever eaten snow? yes

28. What color are your bedsheets? Um...there's the mostly purple comforter, the lavender comforter that says "kiss me" all over it, the maroon Gordon sweatshirt blanket, the pink teddy bear throw, the blue chenille blanket, and the winter scenes quilt. I hate being cold

29. What's your favorite flower? I just like pretty flowers in general

30. Were you or are you in ballet? That would require grace and/or balance. I have neither.

31. Do you listen to classical music? Some

32. Do you have a "wacky noodle"?  No

33. Do you watch Spongebob? HELL no

34. Last food you ate? Cinnamon Toast Crunch

35. Do people consider you smart? apparently

36. What time is it? 10:11 am

37. Is your away message on? yes.

38. Have you ever tried gluing your fingers together? I don't think I've done it on purpose...

39. What curse word do you use the most? Second time I've answered this question today...I'm gonna go with Shit this time.

40. Do you own an iPod? yes.

41. What time is your alarm clock set for? 5:45, 6:30 and 7:15 (I have a really hard time getting up)

42. What CD is currently in your CD player? I don't play CDs anymore. Not with the iPod.

43. What movie do you know every line to? Empire Records and The Three Musketeers

44. What is your favorite salad dressing? italian.

45. Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos? Umm...maybe?

46. How old will you be on your next birthday? 23

47. Do you enjoy giving hugs? yes.

48. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? Last time I had to tell my mom what her skeevy boyfriend was up to.

49. What's the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name? Ummm...they really don't. 

50. If you were to become famous, would you drop your last name? No, but I'd sure as hell change it.
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I apologize if the surveys are driving anyone crazy. But it's my journal. And it's either this or rant about my life. And no one really wants to read that. 

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now?
So much crap - some examples: shoes, speakers, newspapers, CDs, artwork from some kids

2. When was the last time you threw up?
I don't remember

3. What's your favorite curse word?
Shit or Fuck - I should really stop swearing. At least I've cut down.

4. Name one person who made you smile this morning?
Um, as of yet...no one. 

5. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Reading the next part of Rory's AMAZING story.

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Talking on the phone and trying to get my email up (at work)

7. If you could marry any celebrity today who would it be?
Maybe Kiefer, or Matthew Fox. Will Smith is my old standby.

8. Have you ever been to a strip club?
no

9.What is the last thing you said aloud?
"If they're under a 100%..."

10. What is the best ice cream flavor?
cookie dough or chocolate

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
water

12. What are you wearing right now?
jeans, sneakers, polo shirt and Puma hoodie

13. Last food you ate?
bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch

14. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
No

15. When is the last time you ran?
Yeah right.

16. What's the last sporting event you watched?
Spencer's t-ball game last night

17. Last movie you saw?
Garden State

18. Whose the last person you sent a myspace message to?
Probably Jen.

19. Ever go camping?
Yes - not my favorite thing to do

20. Were you ever an honor roll student in school?
yes

21. Do you like sushi?
It's okay...

22. Do you have a tan?
Scandinavian skin, baby. We don't tan.

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw?
Only if it's in a fast food kind of cup

25. What did your last text say?
Ditto

26. Are you someone's best friend?
yes

28. Where is your mom right now?
Either home or on her way home from work

30. What color is your watch?
I have a silver one, but I don't wear it.

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
Oceanic Flight 815 from Sydney to Los Angeles

32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
yes

33. What is your birthstone?
amythest

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
drive thru

35. What is your favorite number?
3 or 7

36. Do you have a dog?
no

43. What does your first memory of your sister involve?
don't have a sister

44. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
My mother and her boyfriend

45. Last phone call?
From Mahogany - work related

46. Are you allergic to anything?
Spring and Fall I'm pretty much allergic to OXYGEN

47. Favorite pair of shoes?
flip flops

48. What is one thing you've learned about life recently?
That finding people to trust is a very difficult thing

49. Are you jealous of anyone?
Yes 

50. Is anyone jealous of you?
I doubt it.

51. Do you own an ipod?
Oh yeah :)

52. Do any of your friends have children?
no

53. What do you work as?
Purchasing/Contractor Management Specialist

54. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
I think so

55. How did you get one of your scars?
Fell down playing basketball in flip-flops

56. Are you a ninja?
no

57. What is your favorite color of used paint?
Why does the pain have to be used?

58. What would you do for a Klondike bar?
Honestly, not that much

59. How many televisions are in your house?
three

60. What is your favorite animal?
cats
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Is all your music organized? in some form or another

Which media player(s) do you use? iTunes

In order by ARTIST (a to z): Which is first? 'N Sync (that's right)

In order by ARTIST (a to z): Which is last? Zack Efron (High School Musical - I'm so ashamed)

How many songs do you have on your computer? 4005

How much room does your music take up on your computer? You expect me to be able to know how to figure that out???

How long (hours, minutes, etc.) is your music, altogether? 10.8 days.

In oder by TITLE (a to z): Which is first? 'Dyin to Be a Ghost' from the Casper soundtrack

In order by TITLE (a to z): Which is last? Zzyzx Rd. by Stone Sour

What are you listening to right now? "Prisoner" by Adam Crossley

Which band's music do you have the most of? I think Evanescence wins

Put your music on RANDOM. What's comes up for the next ten songs?
1. Track 14 by Apocalyptica (I'm sure it has a real name, but I don't know it)
2. It Doesn't Matter by Janet Jackson
3. It's All Coming Back to Me Now by Celine Dion
4. Angels by Within Temptation
5. Just Want You To Know by the Backstreet Boys
6. Addicted by Kelly Clarkson
7. Per Te by Josh Groban
8. Can't Stop Loving You by Nick Lachey
9. Crawl by Staind
10. The Kinslayer by Nighwish

In order by LENGTH/TIME (shortest to longest): Which comes first? Something called 24_massacre_192_lame_cbr_ex (NO clue where it came from) 3 seconds

In order by LENGTH/TIME (shortest to longest): Which comes last? Spleen by Staind (21 minutes)

List off your top 25 most played songs?
1. Everything Changes by Staind
2. Far Away by Nickelback
3. Finale B from Rent (the movie)
4. In The Air Tonight by Nonpoint
5. Call Me When You're Sober by Evanescence
6. Because of You by Kelly Clarkson
7. Untitled by Simple Plan
8. Somebody Told Me by The Killers
9. Dirt Off Your Shoulder/Lying From You by Jay-Z and Linkin Park
10. I Walk The Line by Live
11. Since You Been Around by Rosie Thomas
12. Stay With You by The Goo Goo Dolls
13. Another Day from Rent (the movie)
14. Unfaithful by Rihanna
15. Right Here by Staind
16. Please by Staind
17. Take This by Staind
18. How I Go by Yellowcard
19. Sorry by Buckcherry
20. Hurt by Christina Aguilera
21. One of Us from The Lion King II
22. Broken by Amy Lee and Seether
23. 1,2 Step by Ciarra
24. I Remember by Damien Rice
25. Suspicious Minds by Elvis Presley

Do people think you have good taste in music? Depends on who you ask...it's pretty eclectic as long as you don't go by those 10 random songs that played earlier in the survey...

Song of the moment? Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

What band are you listening to, currently? The Adam Crossley Band

Boredom

Apr. 26th, 2007 05:08 pm
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THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?: Yes
Can you dance?: Kind of...but it's not pretty. Although, I'm getting better at DDR
Can you do a cart wheel?: Yes - but I do them different than everybody else
Can you tie a cherry stem with your tongue?: No
Can you touch your toes?: If I'm allowed to bend my knees
Can you whistle?: Yeah
Can you wiggle your ears?: No
Can you wiggle your nose?: No way

THE DIDS:
Did you ever get into a fist fight in school?: Nope
Did you ever run away from home?: No
Did you ever want to be a doctor?: Nope
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?: No

THE DOS:
Do you believe in God?: Absolutely
Do you know how to swim?: Yes.
Do you like roller coasters? : Yes - but at the same time, I'm still scared to death of them
Do you own a bike?: No
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: No. Turns out my gag reflex is wicked strong

THE DOES:
Does hair loss run in your family at all?: Not really...
Does your car get good gas mileage?: No - it's slowly breaking, so the gas mileage is going down the tubes
Does your family have family picnics?: Yes - both sides

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes.
Have you ever asked someone out?: Yeah - although I try to forget that
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Yes.
Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yes.
Have you ever gone fishing?: Yeah, my dad and I used to back when I didn't think he was evil.
Have you ever painted your nails?: I am a girl...

THE HOWS:
How did you meet your current love interest?: I'm so single it's pathetic
How tall are you?: 5'8
How much money do you have on you right now?: Absolutely nothing. I left my one dollar on the bathroom sink this morning...but I do have the all important debit card.

THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with?: My little brothers last Sunday - we played baseball
Last thing you said out loud?: "Yeah that sounds good."
Last thing someone said to you?: "I'll put the SIFs in the Crown Partners folder."

THE WHATS:
What are you listening to?: Virginia typing
What is the weather outside?: A little overcast
What radio station do you listen to?: None. iPod all the way.
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Subway
What was the last thing you bought?: music from iTunes
What was the last thing you had to drink?: water
what was the last t.v. show you watched?: LOST

THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM'd?: Marlene
Who was the last person you talked to on he phone?: Mike
Who is your current crush?: No one, really.
Who was the last person you took pictures with?: the family at mommy's 50th bday party last weekend
Who was the last person you texted?: Jen - she's really the ONLY person I text - although she never answers me back anymore.

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