Uh-Oh

[failegaidin]

Glory's gonna kill me...but hey...I'm at work, it's gorgeous out, it's Friday...what do you want from me? You might even get to read a rant about my life too...wouldn't that just make your day? ANYWAY...

The Honest & Emotion Survey

1. Honestly, what color is your shirt? Navy blue with yellow lettering

2. Honestly, whats on your mind? My next J/C story

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? Sitting at work, doing this.

4. Honestly, do you think Britney Spears is attractive? Sometimes

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? I thought mean thoughts about somebody.

7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? I don't think I get the disney channel...I guess my ignorance would prove that I don't watch it.

8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? Jen called me this morning to invite me out to lunch.

9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? I'm jealous of my friends who are getting married this summer and are about to embark on a life together. I'm jealous of skinny girls. I'm jealous of people who have nice working cars. I'm jealous of people who have real houses.

10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? My mom's boyfriend sleeping over. My mom making me feel like I can't be a functioning adult. My stepmother ruining my little brothers' lives. Not having anyone to hang out with.

11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? Like you wouldn't believe.

12. Honestly, do you have an eating disorder? Yeah, but not anorexia or bulemia. It's more like binge-eating, which is a disorder.

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? Yes.

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret ? I don't know. I have a secret from my past that I usually forget and that only one or two people know.

15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like? Sadly, yes.

17. Honestly, are you in denial? Probably about something....

19. Honestly, do you like/love anyone? No.

20. Honestly, does anyone like you? No. Really doubting anyone's ever been attracted to me EVER.

Anger Section:

1. What do you do when you're mad? I get really snappy. I hide in my room. I cry. I go for a drive. I go to the gym. 

2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? I don't really know. I internalize. Maybe when I sent Becca crying into the stacks.

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? Yes - sorry Becca

CRYING SECTION:

1. Honestly, when's the last time you really cried? Um, I cried pretty hard when I realized Nightmare (my cat) wasn't coming home.

2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? Yeah.

3. Do certain songs make you cry? If my writer's imagination gets worked up and I envision this heartbreaking scene to a song, then yeah. 

4. What usually makes you cry? Used to be Devin. Lately it's been Nightmare and the fight going on about who's going to live where in the fall.

Happy Section:

1. Is there someone right now, that could do something to make you happy? Yes - but it ain't gonna happen.

2. Who can make you happy? Jen, Mimi and Grampa, Glory and Holly brighten my day every day at work, and Rory when I get home :)

3. Does being with your friends make you happy? Jen can pretty much always make me happy. I feel like it's been so long since I've seen my Gordon friends...

4. Do you believe in yourself? Eh. I don't believe I'll ever have a functioning relationship - or a relationship at all. I don't believe that I'll find a career I love. I don't believe I'll ever be able to completely support myself. So does that count as a no?