Pain

[failegaidin]

Another drabble.

            It hurt. She stared at her screen blankly, her thoughts gnawing on Bill's words. He was gone. Again. And it didn't look like he'd be back for a long time, if ever. She had managed to keep a stoic face when he told her, trying to avoid his sympathetic gaze and the feel of his reassuring hand on her arm. She had nodded, giving him the smallest of smiles before turning back to her computer, silently wishing he would leave her alone. Watching her for a moment, Bill had sighed, walking away and giving her the space that he knew she needed.

            She wasn't surprised that he had left. One way or the other, he was always gone after days like these. Too much had happened…too much had been taken from him. She understood why he couldn't stay.

            But still…she was hurt. He hadn't even said goodbye. Aside from their meeting after he had saved Morris, they had barely said anything to each other. And now he was gone again, without a single word to her.

            Chloe suddenly found it difficult to breathe as the realization came crashing down on her. He didn't actually care about her. She was his colleague, someone he could go to get things done when he needed to stay under the radar. But they weren't friends – she suddenly realized that they never had been. She was just something he used when he had nowhere else to turn.

            She closed her eyes against the burning tears that were threatening to spill out. She felt like such an idiot. Of course she and Jack weren't friends…she had been a fool to ever think otherwise. If he had cared at all, he would have said something before leaving. If he cared, he would at least think twice about leaving her over and over again.

            The pain was overwhelming and Chloe clenched her fists in an effort to keep from sobbing. Opening her eyes, she looked across the floor, to Morris sitting at his station. There was nothing else for her to hold onto…no one else who loved her. Giving him a small smile when he looked up at her, she stood on slightly shaky legs and walked over to him.

             

Comments

[rorylie.livejournal.com]

This is so lovely and heartbreaking. Sniff.

[failegaidin.livejournal.com]

Sometimes we need to accept that Jack keeps leaving her.

Glad you enjoyed it.

[day-dream-girl1.livejournal.com]

Sad because it's true :(